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| Thursday, May 31st, 2012
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11:27 pm
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So my fifth time drawing the one panel I need to finish AWFW this week? Illustrator decided to crash while saving, which didn't just lose my changes since the last save. IT CORRUPTED THE FILE AND THE WHOLE NIGHT'S WORK.
Fuck it, we'll go without.
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9:48 pm
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So, the space battles in DS9's "Sacrifice of Angels?" WOW.
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1:37 pm
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The plan:
Sept 7: Two month layoff begins.
Sept 13: Fly to Minneapolis.
Sept 14-16: Minneapolis.
Sept 17: Fly to San Antonio.
Sept 18-23: San Antonio
Sept 24: Hill Country visit ending up in Austin.
Sept 25-Oct 7: Austin
Oct 8-14: San Antonio
From here, there are two different possibilities for getting home:
Direct Drive to Redmond:
Oct 15: San Antonio, TX to Carlsbad, NM
Oct 16: Carsbad, NM to Yellow Jacket, CO
Oct 17: Yellow Jacket, CO to Twin Falls, ID
Oct 18: Twin Falls, ID to Seattle, WA
It will possibly be faster as I tend to just drive continually, pulling over only for sleep gas and food.
If I have the time and money, the "No Freeways" drive to Seattle:
Oct 15: San Antonio, TX to Hereford, TX
Oct 16: Hereford, TX to Kremmling, CO
Oct 17: Kremmling, CO to Rexburg, ID
Oct 18: Rexburg, ID to Lewiston, ID
Oct 19: Lewiston, ID to Seattle, WA.
Nov 2: Back to work.
Let's see if we can make this happen....
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| Wednesday, May 30th, 2012
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8:35 pm
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6:44 pm
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Blockhead Jenn: Going out of her way to get a WPA password for a customer, only to find out he doesn't need it for any of our products...just to setup his phone.
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12:40 pm
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Bad news, medium news and lots of good news that works out awesomely:
Bad news: they've moved my two month layoff up from Nov-Dec to Sep-Oct. Given some of the toys AwesomeJob is releasing this year, I totally see why they're making sure we're staffed for Christmas. Downside is I won't be in Texas for thanksgiving like I usually am.
Medium news: I'm going to have to cancel birthday week because I can't afford the time off...but with the layoff being moved up, I get two months only a month later. I can live with that.
Good News: I'll have my month in Texas sooner! Two weeks in SA and two weeks in Austin.
Better news: Needing only one plane ticket, I can afford a flight to MN, assuming the Ashfeathers would like company for a week.
Even better news: If dad still wants to give me his pickup, I can drive it back to WA. This means I can use THAT flight to get to MN for free!
This works out awesomely. :)
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12:40 am
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Took birthday week off. Can't afford MN. Turns out can't afford TX neither. Or Canada. Or even locally. Considering just working that week. Or staying home and calling it "The Big Sit."
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| Tuesday, May 29th, 2012
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9:51 pm
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Chicken with home made BBQ sauce, and blueberry cobbler. The last made with artificial sweetener, so I CAN EAT MORE DELICIOUSNESS.
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| Monday, May 28th, 2012
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11:01 pm
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2:14 am
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| Sunday, May 27th, 2012
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11:31 pm
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WHEN DID IT GET TO BE 11:30?!?! So, yeah. 3 panel comic. @_@ (But there'll be TWO)
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8:34 pm
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Another Twilight Zone episode I've never seen! "A World of Difference."
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1:50 pm
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1:04 pm
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12:59 am
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While I was mowing the lawn, I was hoping for some nice story making, or plot twisting or something, but instead I went on a whole different tangent for two hours. And it made me think, which is always dangerous.
I've been unhappy in Seattle since I moved here back in 2008. But WHY? Things are actually pretty good now. Very good in fact...and I'm doing well. But I still want to go back. Why?
I moved here to be with Emily. I left a good job and friends and family to do it. I got a good job, got a nice apartment, and proceeded to work on getting to Canada to be closer to her.
Instead, things went badly, and quickly. The job proceeded to to become abusive and eventually we parted ways badly, the cost of living was too high and quickly eating into my savings, and despite being closer to Emily, I was lonely. All my friends and immediate family were in another state across the continent. I learned all about the Seattle Freeze and the general xenophobia of Seattleites for out-of-towners.
But I braved it for Emily. Even when the job went south, I lost the apartment and found myself over $5000 in debt. There were plans to go home in 2009, and I eventually got the money to do it...but she asked me to stay, and I did. All the while, I became more and more bitter about my experiences here.
I ended up getting a really awesome job. So awesome in fact that when Emily and I broke up, I stayed for it. In fact, I've turned down better jobs to stay there because I love it there. The friends who took me in became family. The acquaintances they had became friends. Many I consider family now. I even learned WHY the Seattle Freeze exists and why it bothered me so much, compared to the friendliness of the south. There was snow, which I adore. There was dark and rain in the winter. I loved that, too. There's a freaking mountain (two if you can see Mt Baker), and vast unexplored areas of rural Washington just as magical as the already explored areas of Texas. I have a good house, with good people, in a good area, with a good job.
"Seattle is where you became diabetic. Seattle is where you an Emily broke up. Seattle is where your truck died. Seattle is where you went into debt. Seattle is where you went into full blown depression."
But those are things that could, and possible would, happened in Texas. Or heck, Pennsylvania had I stayed there. Staying home wouldn't have fixed that. If I had stayed home, I may have had friends and family to help me through it...but I DID have friends and family help me through it here in Seattle.
Why, then, do I want to go home so badly?
I think it comes down to "mission failure" and permanence. I came here to get closer to Emily. And as of now, we haven't spoken a word to each other in nearly a year. I don't think that is going to change. That mission failed, and failed spectacularly. I made it my mission to become a permanent employee of my new job. That mission has also failed. I have a house - but it's rented. I have a job - but it's temporary. I have transportation - but it's my roomie's. I have friends and family here, but the xenophobia is still out there in public. I'm accepted as trans, but not as Texan.
While things have gone right (very right in some ways), too much has gone wrong, which is something that comes to mind when I think about staying. Good things have happened here. Good things continue to happen.
But the whole reason I'm came here is gone, and most of my time trying to acclimate to the culture and area was met by losing pretty much everything, before it got better. My roomies have said that they've tried to make me happier being in the Northwest, and they feel terrible that they can't. It certainly wasn't for lack of trying, they're family to me.
In the end, I think I want to go home, because this place is tainted with long lasting past failures. I want to go home out of bitterness. I don't really think that's a good reason. But all I can think about is I want to go home.
Deep thoughts while mowing the lawn badly.
Deep thoughts before bed.
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12:10 am
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Been incredibly nostalgic, too. You'd think for 1985, which isn't exactly false ((tht's just Netflix talking), but for 2000 . 2000 was a good year. Had my own place, with my own fella, good job. Things were looking up! Then the dot-com bust happened. Ouch.
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12:05 am
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Thinking of other stories I want to write. Not many have TG stuff in them. Xand does, but not in a way you'd expect. AWFW's story wan't meant to have a major TG story in it but did, and there fore the prequel ends up having it. The rest are pretty TG free....
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| Saturday, May 26th, 2012
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11:09 pm
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Looking like CS will be just another three-paneler, but getting closer to the end of the storyline. I'll try to get that one AWFW panel done if there's time.
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6:53 pm
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Huh. I thought Twilight Zone's "The Monsters are Due on Maple Street" was "The Shelter." I'm getting rusty in my geekiness.
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